rollercoaster

i've come to understand now, no matter how much you love or hate your job, that there are good days and bad days, expecially in this line of work dealing with unpredictable children and hormonal teenagers. it's a joy on one day and hell the next. This all depends on how they feel, what's just happened in their lives, be it a test they just aced/flunked, getting no sleep the night before, having lunch next period.... as a result, some days you just want to throttle that one kid who just won't shut up. and the next day they are so attentive and wonderful, you don't recognise them. one day the whole class is amazing and the next they will not want to listen to anything you say and rip pages out their textbook and throw them at each other.

some days, it's just not worth my time and effort to try to get them to listen if i would spend 20 mins each period doing so because:
1. they don't really understand nor respect/fear me as much as their other teachers 2. english is important, but i cant force them to study it if they dont want to. it's their loss. 3. and above all, i know that they are children/teens, and that they will act up occasionally.

one thing i can always count on, though, no matter what day, is that there will always be that ONE student who wants to be there and who makes it worth my while. it's not always the brightest kid in class, sometimes it's the quiet one or the one that is usually a nightmare, while the smart kid just wants to sleep on the desk, exhausted. sometimes, seeing that the kid who never tries really getting into the activity makes my day.